Morning and I hope you are having a good start to this day. \u00a0Cloudy and rainy here on the west coast (surprise surprise lol). \u00a0So I titled this gatekeeper of your mind because nothing has been more important to my productivity and mental well being these last couple weeks. \u00a0For those \u00a0not familiar with the term it means to be in control of what you allow yourself to think about. \u00a0In other words keep the negative crap out. \u00a0Much easier said then done. \u00a0I think my gatekeeper takes a lot of naps. \u00a0lol<\/p>\n
I am now two weeks out of playing at the Roxy. \u00a0I’m more than ok with it being finished however I realized this morning how much I am looking forward to the live stream later today. \u00a0I think that is because without that gig and not teaching a lot right now, I’m not seeing or interacting with people much. \u00a0I have never felt I needed much of that anyway but I’m looking forward to the live stream just to be able to have some contact with people \ud83d\ude42 \u00a0Hopefully if you are reading this in time, you will be in there. \u00a0If not maybe you will catch the next one. \u00a0Link to schedule will be below.<\/p>\n
I also meet with my therapist tonight which I also look very much forward too. \u00a0At this particular time I cannot afford therapy but at the same time I don’t think I can afford to not go. \u00a0I have never felt so much pressure to be productive. \u00a0Not just productive but to do the right things. \u00a0The things that will move the site and my music forward. \u00a0I say my music because I have been writing a bit lately but if you want to talk about messing with my mind. \u00a0As far as time spent, working on lessons and the site seems like it will have the potential to pay my bills\u00a0but working on my music……ah that is where the gatekeeper needs to be on full alert. \u00a0I have always written music since I first started to play. \u00a0When I only knew 2 chords I wrote my first song and performed it at a school variety show.<\/p>\n
And as far as the gatekeeper is concerned, it isn’t that I can’t think about writing but I have to be very careful what those thoughts are. \u00a0I’m also finding that with all this recent uncertainty that my mind has a tendency to go into places of self doubt and insecurity. \u00a0Which seems a bit crazy as I know where I sit as a musician and teacher. \u00a0It is amazing what stress and anxiety does to the mind. \u00a0How it starts to pick away at all areas of ones life.<\/p>\n
Anyway, I am not writing this to be all sad. \u00a0The last few days have been good. \u00a0Productive and positive and today will be the same \ud83d\ude42 I have been working on so much material. \u00a0If you are not a member, you should consider getting the limited access membership for free, just so you can be a part of this with me! \u00a0You will find the form on the page below where you will also find my upcoming stream schedule. \u00a0Please come say hi \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n